Faith

Ahhhh.... the serene sensation of living through the exam week... not exactly an achievement to be bragging about but.... I would say its good enough for my standards..

NO. I am not going to talk about my exam... enough of that already... let bygones be bygones...

Eeeee.... I would like to talk about my 1st experience at HOMES... For me.. I would personally call it cell group..

It has been a long time since I had went to any Christian fellowship. Reason was... the holiday week involved me being trapped in Cendana... Therefore I looked forward to go to this event..

Half asleep.. I was shocked out of my slumber when Brian woke me up..

"it it time to go homes lo" "omg its 7!! can u gimme 5 min"

yeah... that explains it... i bath, dressed and ran bought some french fries all within 5 minutes.. (hungry bah..) Skip the travelling. The home we went to was a nice house. It was cosy and clean.

I know.... My grammar sucks a bit here... So bear with me....

Hmm.. when i went into the house.. I thought to myself "impressive"..... but that did not manage to excite my interest since I was already dead tired by that point of time. I can still observe my surroundings though. Ugh... My brain is stalling... I am running out of adjectives.... FINE.. the house was nice.. Then came the people.. everyone was very warm and stuff.. Then the foood..~~ Yeah... curry and beehoon.. not much.. but enough to fill my tummy..

Then came the worship.. Great time i suppose... Loved it.. Feels like being deluged in a drought.. It is just so fascinating what God can do through a time of lifting up praise to him..

Then the highlight, the sharing.

At first, I saw the big title... TESTIMONY.. I was like oooowwwhhh man... the hardest thing talk about... We were separated into groups..and we were supposed to share our testimony to each other... If you ever want to know what I share... Private stuf...

Then the person who was sharing pointed out that the dictionary states that testimony=personal account/experince/first hand encounter.

He said that the more faith we put into our actions. The more testimony we would be able to give.. EEEeee i have been low on fAITH LOL.... Better repent... Ugh.. the whole sharing was amazing... It reminded me how happy I was when God was the only one I depended on.. I want to go back to that place of pure dependence on God again...

GGGGRRRR no matter what I do I cant seem to express correctly!!! dang it... fine...

The guy said get the mpg for the whole sermon by the pastor.... I will try...

Hope to grow more faith.

Weeee~~~

Ok... the title has nothing to do with what i am going to post next. It is not really a WEEE kind of feeling.. guess what I am doing..

I am writing a blog.. on the teachers table. In front of 19 studying students. Hahaha.. Not the best thing to do I guess.. I have just another hour to my test... but I guess I cant stop my fingers to speak out..

I realise that sometimes.... We are just like a pot of porridge. Cant believe me? Wait till i explain... the process of cooking porridge.. We rinse the grain. We immerse it in water. We close the lid. And we start the fire going and we wait... Then heat builds up in the pot, and the lid starts rattling right? We are supposed to open the lid to let a small amount of steam out once a while..

What happened to me was.. I never open the lid for a long long time.... Pressure build up... I was stressed.. Lacking of sleep.. then, it happened.. Water poured out of the lid so suddenly....

I could not hold myself back any longer and finally poured out one year of stored emotions on someone.. =.=

I would like to thank that person for bearing with me... Listening to my ugly feelings.. Doing something so noble and still wished to be friends with me.. I will forever be grateful and be in debt ^^

And now.. you get the point.. Now that the pressure has lessened, I have to get on with life.. Let the porridge cook slowly.. Someday I think I will become a better person.. Just like the tasty porridge... xP

Yeah... thats it LAH.... Not much to say except study study exam exam. GRR... Have to tackle my studies now.. I am gonna fail sooner or later if i dont.. Reading!!! 40 minutes left.. T.T

This post is specially dedicated to that person who has helped me so much!!! TQ!!

School's gonna start.

Grrr... The agony of preparing to go back to INTEC. To a life of study study study study and the cycle goes on. Everyone is still in the holiday mood and nobody is prepared to go back to INTEC.

Furthermore, we have got exam next week. And poor me have not even started studying. (YET)

Life in Intec is certainly boring (for me).

Listening to sad songs for hours and hours aint the best for my emotional health. But what can I do, Life here is so so so so so so so BORING. (you get the point) Stress is also a problem here. What I meant was, how can I not be stressed if everyone is studying and I am the only one trying to enjoy my life with games games food and music? All these people are a bunch of geniuses and they dont have problem studying. Unlike me, I find it hard to focus on my studies if it boring... (pre-cal) It is the most energy consuming subject and whats more, I find that I have absorbed nothing after an exhausting session studying it. Plainly, I am very exhausted and bored and fed up with life over here..

The truth is, I bet that everywhere that I go, I would still be feeling the same thing like I am feeling now. I really dont know what I have gotten myself into.. I hope when I am older, I wont look back and find that I have made the biggest mistake if my life to further my studies. I can always try, but I might fail.

I think I need to manage my own emotions, stress and feelings better. Conclusion? None available.

Cash and Internet (Basic solutions to Teenage Problems)

I have been out of cash for the past week I suppose. Having to borrow money from my friends is not exactly a pleasing experience. Just Imagine that I have been surviving on other people's pocket money. Yeah I know its kind of stupid. Darren lend me 50 bucks and Nat lend me 10 bucks. It feels like sapping their wallets. Hahahaha...

Guess what? JPA just gave us our allowances~~~ wooohooo~~~ praise God for the reinforcements.. When Nat told me the news, I was skeptical. It is due to numerous false alarms that has occurred prior to this event that had gave me such a mindset. Still feeling skeptical but desperate for money, I walked down to the Petronas fuel station by the junction and popped my card into the ATM machine. Guess What? A four digit number with a three as the first one!!!

What a shame that I can only withdraw 200 bucks a day. (I think that limit was set by my parents to control me XD) It took me another 5 minute to run back to Cendana and pay both Nat n Darren the amounts that I have borrowed from them.

For Your Information.... I was not out of cash.. But simply too Lazy to go to the ATM to withdraw my money.... Hahahahah...

Internet!! Who can live without it? (cavemens) SHUT UP! That was rhetorical. Darren and I went to Ole Ole to get our WIMAX modem. Before we bought it, we have heard rumours of people getting faulty WIMAX modems which cost them a trip to Petaling just to fix the modem. Reason behind this (as told by the salesman) is that the only service centre available nearby Shah Alam was there. So, Darren and I were in the taxi, praying hard while holding on to the modem.

When we got back, It was a surprise that the Wimax modem worked like a charm. Whats even more surprising is that the Internet connection came in after 30 minutes! God BLESS us! Hahahaha.... We were surfing the Net in no time. DOTA + XDO hahaha...

So thats it.. THX for reading~